A very bittersweet few days of goodbyes at Shakespeare & Co. this last week. The last Monday of the intensive we had a day of rehearsals for our final scene sharing and Stuart arrived just in time to see my rehearsal time on the Playhouse stage. Tuesday we had our last full day on campus. We had our final scene sharing of 25 scenes and 3 dances we learned while at Shakes and Co.. It was full of laughter, tears, smiles and cheers! Actors couldn't ask for a better audience to perform for. We all cheered and interacted with every scene, it was unbelievably fun. We lived in the moment and dreaded having to say our goodbyes. We had a final class where we went around the circle and said, "What I want to carry with me is..., What I want to leave behind is..." and then we said "I want to want to give you the gift of..." to the person next to us. It was such a special way to close our time shared together and gave me a very small sense of closure. I never want full closure from this experience. I want this experience and everyone I share it with to be a piece of my everyday life.
What I want to leave behind is the voice of judgment and fear.
What I want to carry forward in being present and using my voice in everything I do and not being afraid to take up space!
I want to give everyone I know the gift of joy and laughter everyday. I want to inspire those around me to live their dreams and to never make their dreams smaller.
I can't stop thinking about the classes, exercises and wonderful conversations we had everyday. I can't stop thinking about everyone I became so close with and how I can only see them through Facebook now. I miss them all so much. The transition back into reality has been difficult. I'm fired up and ready to take on new challenges! I feel the pull to move to a bigger city with more opportunities and art happening. I don't want to get sucked back into the lifestyle I had before. I am an artist and an actor. I want to live THAT lifestyle, not one where I feel as if I'll never make it as a artist and actor. I believe that I can do it and I will. I don't want to sit back and waste time in places that aren't thriving with classes and ways to continue expanding my knowledge and love for theatre.
I have noticed a change in myself since being home. I can feel that my body is holding less tension. I'm more aware of any tension in my body and I've been feeling more confident in taking up space. It's been easier to explain my feelings in words and it feels good to communicate in a more honest and open way. I want to keep these feelings going. I am still working on following my impulses and seeing where that can take me. Whenever I'm feeling out of balance or off I am staying curious about it and trying to understand why. Re-entry is harder than I expected. Although it's hard, I am glad I can notice changes I've made in myself and I am trying hard to keep them going.
I have auditions coming up next month and in the following months that I am really looking forward to. I am trying to find classes to keep me busy and to keep my creative juices flowing. I hope to find a project to start in the next few weeks. I am journalling and reading a ton too! I want to start the workings of a play by summertime and as the ideas flow in I try to put them to paper.
If you can't tell, I'M SUPER FIRED UP! If anyone wants to work on a project together or just get together to talk about the arts, I am ready! Even a phone call works!
Thank you for supporting me when I was away and even more so now that I am home.
Loves!!!
What I want to leave behind is the voice of judgment and fear.
What I want to carry forward in being present and using my voice in everything I do and not being afraid to take up space!
I want to give everyone I know the gift of joy and laughter everyday. I want to inspire those around me to live their dreams and to never make their dreams smaller.
I can't stop thinking about the classes, exercises and wonderful conversations we had everyday. I can't stop thinking about everyone I became so close with and how I can only see them through Facebook now. I miss them all so much. The transition back into reality has been difficult. I'm fired up and ready to take on new challenges! I feel the pull to move to a bigger city with more opportunities and art happening. I don't want to get sucked back into the lifestyle I had before. I am an artist and an actor. I want to live THAT lifestyle, not one where I feel as if I'll never make it as a artist and actor. I believe that I can do it and I will. I don't want to sit back and waste time in places that aren't thriving with classes and ways to continue expanding my knowledge and love for theatre.
I have noticed a change in myself since being home. I can feel that my body is holding less tension. I'm more aware of any tension in my body and I've been feeling more confident in taking up space. It's been easier to explain my feelings in words and it feels good to communicate in a more honest and open way. I want to keep these feelings going. I am still working on following my impulses and seeing where that can take me. Whenever I'm feeling out of balance or off I am staying curious about it and trying to understand why. Re-entry is harder than I expected. Although it's hard, I am glad I can notice changes I've made in myself and I am trying hard to keep them going.
I have auditions coming up next month and in the following months that I am really looking forward to. I am trying to find classes to keep me busy and to keep my creative juices flowing. I hope to find a project to start in the next few weeks. I am journalling and reading a ton too! I want to start the workings of a play by summertime and as the ideas flow in I try to put them to paper.
If you can't tell, I'M SUPER FIRED UP! If anyone wants to work on a project together or just get together to talk about the arts, I am ready! Even a phone call works!
Thank you for supporting me when I was away and even more so now that I am home.
Loves!!!